Post by TAVIUS KAITO SUSUME on Dec 27, 2010 3:54:21 GMT
( TAVIUS KAITO SUSUME )
THE ROLEPLAYER THE ROLEPLAYER
THE ROLEPLAYER THE ROLEPLAYER
bitch i'm da bomb~ ;D
THE BASICS THE BASICS THE BASICS
"M-my name is Tavius Kaito Susume... I-i uhh... I have... a lot of nicknames, b-but most people call me Tav or T-tavi.... Y-yamato-oto c-calls me "niichan" or "aniki" b-but... I have other nicknames... I-i'm seventeen and I-i'm homosexual... I-i'm a m-m-male a-and apparently I'm c-crazy.. a-and a n-nobody. Th-the ll me I have s-s-schi-zoph-phrenia... b-because I see a-and hear things th-they can't... a-and. b-because of that I-i have very bad sleep terors a-about H-him... s-sometimes I-i'll just n-not eat u-unless someone forces me t-to... a-and I-i'm s-scared of sleeping... I-i d-do not like people t-touching me either... e-especially not now... I-i keep h-hurting people and it's s-scary... th-they say i'm p-paranoid a-and de-depr-essed... b-but i-i just get r-really d-down a-and scared... I-i am a-also suic-cidal... uhhh... I-i... s-some p-people tell me I-i look like Miku ffrom An Cafe..."
THE PERSONALITY THE PERSONALITY
"I-i love m-music... i-it's my life... I-i've always had it... I-i like si-singing t-to... a-apparently I'm a g-good singer... I... l-like dancing a bit to... a-and I like b-blood... o-only my b-blood though. Uhh... I-i like Misaku a-and Yamato my s-siblings... a-and Sune... I-i like my f-friends to... a-nd men, e-even if they scare me t-to... I-i k-kind of like b-boys... song w-writing a-and poetry... I-i like Mika w-who looks after Misaku a-and drawing to... I uhh... th-there are m-many things I-i dislike... l-like being t-touched by people o-or the d-dark b-because i-it reminds me o-of back th-then. I Do not like N-noa! He s-scares me s-so much... h-he raped me to a-and I do not like th-that... i-i do n-not like t-talking about i-it though... I... h-hate crowded p-places b-because s-some c-could touch me... I-i do not like K-kazuki o-or u-uncle T-takuya ei-either... th-they did b-bad things... a-and I-i don't like p-people getting h-hurt a-and not getting b-better...
I-i guess m-my goal i-is to get b-better... b-but if I-i d-do not m-manage that th-then I-i want t-to d-die... s-so badly. P-people say I'm v-very k-kind and g-gentle... th-they also say I'm v-very sweet a-and caring... b-but I-i don't know... a-apparently i'm a-a good singer, dancer a-and listener t-to... b-but there a-are things people d-do not like a-about me... th-that I-i do n-not like a-about me... f-for example sometimes I-i can be t-too quite o-or s-scared... o-or th-the fact tha-that it is m-mostly o-older men th-that scares m-me... s-some people d-don't like i-it when I f-forget to s-speak English o-or trail o-off in Japanese... I.. c-can be very d-depressive t-to.... a-and I-i do not like p-eople reading wh-what is in the n-notebook..."
THE HISTORY THE HISTORY THE HISTORY
"i suppose i should tell you about.. well me. i-i don't want to... but i will... mika said telling people might make me better... maybe.
i was born in kyoto, japan. my parents were very young at the time, only just fifteen. but they loved me anyway. my father, who was left with nothing after being abandoned by his family as an infant, and my mother who only had her older brother and two distant cousins as family alive. they provided for me themselves, with a little help from family or friends. they doted on me, and loved me. to them i was perfect. to me, life was perfect.
when i was two my father got mixed with the wrong crowd and my parents split up, a short while later my half brother was born, his mother died at birth. my mother, who still loved my father, took them both back in. for two years we lived happily, my father sparked up a relationship with my godfather, and my mother with a friend of theirs. life was good, i knew they were both happy and saw nothing wrong with what they were doing. but obviously, something had been wrong.
june 14th, just a few months after my fourth birthday, i watched as my uncle takuya murdered my father. to this day, i still don't know why. but there's no proof he did it. only my word against his, and i'm crazy now so who would believe me. my mother saw it to. she was pregnant at the time to, my half-sister misaku was born two days later, a month early. she nearly died. my mothers attention became focused on her, leaving me and my half-brother with our godfather, kazuki rode.
kazuki was cruel to me, because i looked just like my father. he abused me when we stayed with him,but i put up with it, never said a word against him. i let myself suffer in silence. i was the oldest after all, i had to look after my mother and siblings, so then my step-father only had to look after me.
i was about six years old when my mother died. it hurt, a lot. i may not have seen her die, or even have sen her dead, but it really hurt, because now i was an orphan. now me and my siblings lived with my step-father. he was very kind to us, he looked after us carefully and properly by day, not even giving himself much time to mourn. he never wanted to make us sad.
but then, i made him sad. when i was seven i began doing drugs. even then i knew it was wrong, but i still did it. my brother, yamato, he began doing drugs when he was eight. by then, i'd got a "job". i felt like i had to, so kankuro wouldn't know about the drugs. i was ten then, when i began working for noa. i was a dancer in his club.
yamato never joined there. but when he was nine, we all watched a boy die. we were all high. i had dared everyone to... i can't even remember now. but whatever the dare, this boy had ended up dead. he wasn't one of us, and no one knows who killed him. but i blamed myself. it was my fault he died. so, from then on i quit the drugs, instead sending the money i earned to the boy's family.
my brother, yamato, had a psychotic break-down that day. after that, kankuro sent us to live with kazuki, unable to handle us. next i'd heard from him was that he'd booked himself into an asylum after his own break down. he's been in there ever since. my brother never stopped the drugs, but my friends and i did. instead we focused on our job - we all worked there.
there was four of us as friends - me, ryu, chacilla and kage. we were always together, we had been friends for years. they'd seen me break down, and kage had even ran away from home to stay with us. other boys came along to and made friends with us, kage in particular. but they were mostly normal. noa wasn't interested in them. he wanted me. when i was fourteen, he 'promoted' me to strip dancer, one who offered 'private' dances.
he basically began using me as his personal whore. then, not long before my fifteenth birthday, he kidnapped me and locked me in a room in a warehouse. He took my clothes away from me and left me tied up and naked fo a whole year. in that year he, and other guys who either paid or he owed favours to, came and raped me. it was then i stopped eating. i refused it. i didn't want to eat anything. i just wanted to die.
it was then when i mentally broke down. that had been the last of my teather. by the time i had escaped and got out of hospital, i found out that kage had died.i was completely broken when i tried to kill myself. mika found me. i told him about kage, and noa and kazuki - and even how yami had begun doing things to me before noa kidnapped me.
mika got kazuki jailed and had yamato sent here. they never found noa to arrest him. however, mika found i never got better, not even when misaku or sune tried to help me, so instead he sent me hear to, having heard that yamato was apparently doing well..."
THE CREDIT THE CREDIT THE CREDIT
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