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River whistled happily, his light blue eyes showing his odd joy. Odd because, hardly anyone would be happy in such a depressing, gloomy place. With psychos running this way and that, idiot staff who were just as fucked up as - if not more than - the kids themselves. And yet, this young male was as happy as they came. Not annoyingly happy, of course. But River didn't look down on things. Even though he knew he wasn't crazy. Shade was real! And it was Shade who was the cruel one. Shade was the one who liked to beat people up. Shade was the one who liked the blood. River knew this, because River was a sweet male. He loved people. Loved talking to people. Beating someone up and cruelty just weren't in his nature.

Aside from that, Shade was what River called his "wolf side." See, River believed he was a werewolf. How else could he explain the appearance of Shade? Because, he wasn't crazy. No, no, no. Crazy people were... well, crazy. River wasn't crazy. He was a happy person. And it was this happy person, whistling glory and all, that was walking through the sad excuse for a forest. The tiny clump of trees almost annoyed him. He wanted a real forest, where he could run around. An active person, River couldn't stand to sit still. With a sigh, the young male continued walking, wondering if he could get lost. He doubted it. His werewolf-like instincts would lead him back to the safety of the asylum. Even if it was far from safe.

"River. I'm hungry. Find me someone to kill." Shade growled, causing River to jump slightly. Odd. Shade hardly ever came out this early. River shook his head. Shade, go away. I don't want to be with you today. River thought back, his blue eyes darting around. He didn't want anyone to think he was crazy. Because he wasnt, damn it! He really fucking wasn't crazy! Shade was a real, true, werewolf that liked to take over River's body and kill people. Why didn't anyone believe him? Shade laughed inside River's head, and then seemed to disappear. River sighed in relief and leaned against a tree, panting. Each time Shade talked to him, his head got light, and his vision got darker. When Shade took total control, River blacked out. Today, it seemed, Shade didn't want total control.

Actions. Thoughts. "Shade speaking.""Speach."

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WORD COUNT ??401
OUTFIT ??Click
TAGGED ??Open
STATUS ??Finito
NOTES ??N/A
CREDIT ??This lovely template was made by yours truly, Syllvie (on proboards) aka daidai of Caution 2.0. These amazing lyrics are from Animal I Have Become by Three Days Grace. If you steal this template, I will personally send my amazingly crazy Terrance to skin you alive with a butter knife. ^^ Love you! <3

[SONNY MAVIS ULRICH]

Sonny just wanted to get away today. What he was running from he had no clue. Was there even an escape from this place he wondered. Sonny didn't like it here, besides the fact that it sheltered him and gave him food. He hated this place. The place smelled of mold, and the food well wasn't food. And here he was running all the things that might have been good about this place through his head, but his mind was being fogged up by the scent of cigarette smoke. The sixteen year old swore to himself he was going to die from second hand smoke if a noose didn't get to him first. Here he was running and he didn't even know from what. Though whatever it was he knew he had to get away. Get away from the walls closing in on him. He needed to clear his head and thoughts, anywhere but here. He repeated over and over again in his head.

Being outside felt like a huge relief than being inside the damp, rusted, moldy walls of Stanfield. The fresh cold air filled Sonny's lungs and head. It was good enough to wash the scent of smoke from his clothes. Still the distance was too close he had to get away, get away from the walls of Stanfield that towered over him like a giant. Why did they need to deem him insane? Suicidal thoughts were only natural in a person thought Sonny. People thought about death every day. Why was the small fact he didn't want to live a reason for everyone to freak? It was his choice and his life, shouldn't people respect that? Thought Sonny to himself. And the more he thought about the more he hated the people of Stanfield, the more he hated people. God! He just wanted to be left alone.

The forest was the best place to go Sonny figured. It was close by that he wouldn't get solitary, but the distance was far from where he didn't want to be and that was good enough for him. Sonny imagined himself being alone who would be out in the forest when it was cold? Well besides him, but he had a reason. Then again he was wrong. Of course it was just Sonny's luck someone else was out here and here he was thinking to himself that maybe finally he would get some time to himself. He sighed, walking closer towards Rivers direction. Not caring if he was noticed. He stood feet in front of the boy who he had once had a conversation with once or twice before. "River what are you doing out here?"

"YOUR TALKING LOOKS LIKE THIS?
"THINKING OR OTHER PEOPLE TALKING LOOKS LIKE THIS?"

I BELIEVE I TOLD SOME LIES /RIVER. IM HOLDING ONTO ALL I HAD /456.
I BELIEVE IN BUTTERFLIES /DONE. GO TO HELL SOME OTHER DAY /OUTFIT.
SAYING SORRY FOR WHEN I WAS BAD /I HOPE YOU DON'T MIND IF THEY KNOW EACH OTHER, I REALLY HATE MEETING THREADS XDD. TRUST ME ITLL BE OK REAL SLIM SHADY !?

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[RIVER POOL WOODS]

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The chilled wind felt nice against River's skin. Despite the snowy ground, River felt warm. Something about feeling good inside about everything made everything outside feel good, too. If someone met River, they'd highly doubt he was meant for a crazy house. Unfortunately, if they met Shade, they'd all know why he was here. But, River was a happy kid, making the most out of everything, even if things were bad. He could probably make a murder look happy if he tried hard enough. His light blue eyes scanned the area, finding that a familiar face was walking toward him.

"River what are you doing out here?" The face spoke, and Riv smiled, waving to the antisocial Sonny. From their previous encounter, River had easily figured that Sonny was an antisocial, sort of rude person. Somehow, River found this utterly adorable. Grinning, he walked closer and hugged the other boy tightly, keeping his arms around his waist. "I love it outside. I can't stand being inside. I feel like a caged animal." River said simply. "And what about you, Cutie?" He asked, tilting his head slightly, his face in a naturally kind smile.

"Riv! Ask him if he wants to die! OH! I hope so!" The familiar voice of Shade caused River to quickly let go of Sonny and bring one hand to his head, feeling a bit light-headed and weaker. River shook his head slightly, frowning. Shade, no! Go away. He doesn't want to die, dumbass... River replied in his head, not wanting to speak aloud. He and Shade were "telepathic." They were combined into one body, which happened to be River's. Shade tried to force his way through River's consciousness, causing River to have to lean against a tree for support, gripping his head and wincing at the major headache that was forming. After only a few more seconds, Shade gave up and River was panting slightly. He slid down the tree into a sitting position, wincing slightly.

Actions. Thoughts. "Shade speaking." "Speach." "Other speaking."

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WORD COUNT ??328
OUTFIT ??Click
TAGGED ??Open
STATUS ??Finito
NOTES ??Hehe, it's allll good <3 I dun mind ^^
CREDIT ??This lovely template was made by yours truly, Syllvie (on proboards) aka daidai of Caution 2.0. These amazing lyrics are from Animal I Have Become by Three Days Grace. If you steal this template, I will personally send my amazingly crazy Terrance to skin you alive with a butter knife. ^^ Love you! <3

[SONNY MAVIS ULRICH]

Odd enough with only a cardigan on, the cold didn't bother Sonny. He was use to the cold by now. He could have been cold-blooded for all he knew. The cold was something that became almost normal for the boy. He had become custom to it, accepted as a part of his life. When the numbness set it. He waited it out. All he really could do, and during these short periods of time he just didn't want to live anymore. Saw no reason to live. Then when everything around him kicked in again. When he was able to feel. Death didn't appeal to him. Living didn't suit him and death didn't want him. How could he best explain it? It felt like being stuck in limbo. The cold well it just made him cold on the outside as well.

Sonny only stopped and stared at the boy. River was someone that went against everything Sonny was for. He was someone he could have a nice conversation with. It was just the some of the things that left his mouth Sonny butted heads with, but it was as if nothing were wrong to River. It made him want to pull his hair out, but tired at the same time. That he just gave up and ended up talking to him anyways. He was just getting use to the way River was. He defiantly didn't like close contact to begin with, and being this close to another human being made him on edge. River didn't even have to back away before Sonny pushed him away arms length. He needed to put distance between their bodies. “Same I can't stand to be in that place. It fogs up my head and I can't think clearly” He shook his head. “And stop hugging me all the time, don't you know anything about personal space?” He sighed. At least they had one thing in common.

Yes Sonny was rude, and had little regard for people's feelings. He may have been cold and distant from the world, but he wasn't cruel. It came as a shock to him, he couldn't tell if something was wrong. He hoped nothing was wrong. Sonny didn't think he could take care of another human being, it kind of scared him to think about it. He barely wanted to live somehow the two didn't go hand in hand. “Please tell me your okay?”He peered down at River. He knew about his other side. And really he could have cared less for him. Still he had a person in front of him who was obviously in some kind of pain or hurt. What scared him the most. He didn't know what to do.

"YOUR TALKING LOOKS LIKE THIS?
"THINKING OR OTHER PEOPLE TALKING LOOKS LIKE THIS?"

I BELIEVE I TOLD SOME LIES /RIVER. IM HOLDING ONTO ALL I HAD /470.
I BELIEVE IN BUTTERFLIES /DONE. GO TO HELL SOME OTHER DAY /OUTFIT.
SAYING SORRY FOR WHEN I WAS BAD /I HOPE YOU DON'T MIND IF THEY KNOW EACH OTHER, I REALLY HATE MEETING THREADS XDD. TRUST ME ITLL BE OK REAL SLIM SHADY !?

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[RIVER POOL WOODS]

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Being pushed away didn't really bother him. Hardly anything really made River sad. Sure, he disliked a few things, everyone did. But Rivvy was far too happy for him to get down and depressed about anything. This was surely seen as strange, and yet River still attracted people. He figured it was his upbeat attitude. Everyone needs a little happy in their life. River supplied everyone's happiness, he guessed. In return, their happiness made River happy. Of course he enjoyed teasing Sonny. The other boy's reactions were amusing. And, well, he kept coming back. Obviously River was doing something.

He didn't have time to reply to what Sonny said, because Shade was being a total douche and trying to take over, and River didn't feel like waking up to being tied down again, with his clothes soaked in blood. Yes, he had medications to take that were supposed to help him, to keep Shade at bay, but they had little effect. After a while, River had just stopped taking them. This lead to Shade's attacks being more frequent and a little stronger. Despite this, River somehow still managed to smile. Even he himself wondered why he should sometimes. Then, he'd see all the depressed, lonely, and sick people, and want to help. Sonny was one of those lonely kids that River wanted to help.

As Sonny questioned River's health, he shook his head slightly, saying that he wasn't okay. Contradicting that, he waved his hand dismissively, putting on a pained smile, one eye staying closed. His head was pounding and his vision was blury. River shook his head again and closed both eyes tightly. "I'm... perfectly fine... Just, um, let me..." His head pounded again, the light only making things worse. River covered his eyes with his hands and took a deep breath, letting it out slowly. "Let me sit here for a couple minutes. I'm fine, I promise." Riv glanced up at Sonny, despite the pain it cause when the sun glared into his eyes.

"Sit with me." River forced a smile and reached for Sonny's hand, taking it and gently tugging. Not completely pulling the boy down, since that may hurt them both in the process, and River's head was hurting enough for three elephants. In the back of his mind, Shade was laughing slightly. Each sound that Shade made caused another wave of pain to wash over Riv's head. Despite that, the boy continued to smile and act as though nothing were wrong. He hated people worrying about him, especially when there were others that clearly needed more help than he did. Such as Sonny. Sonny was a member of the suicidals. He was a suicide risk. Riv hated death, of anyone, and he was determined to bring some light into Sonny's shadowed eyes.

Actions. Thoughts. "Shade speaking." "Speach." "Other speaking."

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WORD COUNT ??464
OUTFIT ??Click
TAGGED ??SUPERADORABLEOMGRUDE SONNY WHO IS STILL SO FREAKING CUTE! <3
STATUS ??Finito
NOTES ??Hehe, it's allll good <3 I dun mind ^^
CREDIT ??This lovely template was made by yours truly, Syllvie (on proboards) aka daidai of Caution 2.0. These amazing lyrics are from Animal I Have Become by Three Days Grace. If you steal this template, I will personally send my amazingly crazy Terrance to skin you alive with a butter knife. ^^ Love you! <3

[SONNY MAVIS ULRICH]

So what if Sonny didn't get River or anything really except for what he believed in? Not many people got him, actually very little in fact. He was a train wreck and yes he wasn't okay, but he was fine with that. He just couldn't see why River was so happy while Sonny felt so shitty. He knew both of them were two completely different people, two different personality’s. He sometimes wished he could have been just as happy as River. Even knew he was capable of being just of happy. If he tried hard enough, he could make it happen. He was just wondering why he hadn't yet.

Sonny could only roll his eye's at Rivers comment. Of course he wasn't okay. He was in front of him on the ground wincing probably with a mass headache with whatever he was battling in his own head. How did he know? Well Sonny faked his smiles all the time. See if you put on a smile no one asked what was wrong. No one worried about you. And here River was convincing Sonny that he was okay. Well Sonny was just going to play along. As long as he didn't have to do anything drastic, he was going to pretend. Make River feel better. If he could even help thought Sonny to himself. “Okay sure”

Guess he could have done what he could to help. Maybe he wasn't as heartless as people thought he was. He just rarely got out and didn't like people. Did that make him a bad person? He sat down beside the other male with a heavy sigh. Glad he asked this time instead of just taking actions into his own hands. He edged himself closer to the large trunk of the tree next to River. Watching him closer he wondered what it must be like to have a second personality. Maybe that's wha attracted him to River cause there was a part of him he didn't know about. He was interesting in his own way that was for a fact. He didn't necessarily liked Shade actually kind of hated him, but Sonny was kind of sure River wasn't too fond of him either.

Sonny could only watch and speculate whatever it was was because of him. Really Sonny wanted to say something about it. It was always Sonny to say the first thing on his mind and usually it wasn't nice. He couldn't help it. Well he could, but a part of him didn't want to. He leaned in close to Rivers ear, close enough he could have felt his breath on his neck. “I think you should tell him to fuck off.” He smirked. “I bet that would make him really happy”He rolled his eye's. Arching his neck against the tree he was leaning on, looking up he imagined himself hanging from it. He really was one of those lonely kids that needed help.

"YOUR TALKING LOOKS LIKE THIS?
"THINKING OR OTHER PEOPLE TALKING LOOKS LIKE THIS?"

I BELIEVE I TOLD SOME LIES /RIVER. IM HOLDING ONTO ALL I HAD /511.
I BELIEVE IN BUTTERFLIES /DONE. GO TO HELL SOME OTHER DAY /OUTFIT.
SAYING SORRY FOR WHEN I WAS BAD /I HOPE YOU DON'T MIND IF THEY KNOW EACH OTHER, I REALLY HATE MEETING THREADS XDD. TRUST ME ITLL BE OK REAL SLIM SHADY !?

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River wasn't sure if he liked the fact that Sonny played along or not. Inwardly, it kind of hurt. He sort of wanted Sonny to call him a liar and force help upon him. At the same time, though, he was thankful that, for once, someone wasn't attempting to make everything 'alright' with him. Honestly, River doubted very much he'd ever be 'alright.' Shade never left him alone, and was constantly bothering him, always in his head. Laughing, attempting control, causing River's head to ache. It was completely annoying. River wished he could just be normal. Not be a stupid werewolf that everyone called crazy for believing he was such a thing. They all thought Shade was a figment of River's imagination or something. Something that his mind conjured up to battle out to unique happiness and natural ecstacy that River always felt.

It wasn't River that hated the close contact of Sonny. In fact, River absolutely loved it. He loved being the only one that Sonny bothered to spend time with, to talk to. He loved being the only one that Sonny would sit down and be so close with. He loved being the only one that was allowed to even be near Sonny. No, it wasn't River that hated Sonny. It was Shade. Shade reeled and practically growled at the closeness of Sonny. River shivered slightly at the breath on his neck, but Shade dispised it. River winced again as Shade tried to take control. He wasn't quite sure how, but somehow, River managed to keep the angry voice at bay. If Shade came out now, River doubted very much that Sonny would be alive tomorrow. And he hated himself for that fact.

After Shade had given up and River's headache was slowly going down, he leaned his head against the tree and breathed out an audible sigh of relief. "I'm just lucky Shade likes me so much, enough not to make endure too much pain..." River laughed slightly, shaking his head. He brought a hand to his head, running it through his dark hair. "Fuck..." He laughed again, hitting his head against the tree. "Sonny, hold me." His voice was soft despite the demand. River sighed again, and probably looked pretty... well... pretty pathetic. His eyes were shut against the light, and hair was a little messy from his hand just running through it. And he certain felt a lot like shit. He hated Shade. Hated Shade more than anyone should ever hate a person. Hating anyone was so unlike River. But Shade... River wished Shade would just die.

Actions. Thoughts. "Shade speaking." "Speach." "Other speaking."

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WORD COUNT ??430
OUTFIT ??Click
TAGGED ??SUPERADORABLEOMGRUDE SONNY WHO IS STILL SO FREAKING CUTE! <3
STATUS ??Finito
NOTES ??Poor River D: Shade's a meany-butt! D<
CREDIT ??This lovely template was made by yours truly, Syllvie (on proboards) aka daidai of Caution 2.0. These amazing lyrics are from Animal I Have Become by Three Days Grace. If you steal this template, I will personally send my amazingly crazy Terrance to skin you alive with a butter knife. ^^ Love you! <3

[SONNY MAVIS ULRICH]

Sonny defiantly wasn't agreeing to River to make himself feel better. He knew something was wrong. He just didn't know if he wanted to be left alone about it meaning he wanted Sonny to just drop it and pretend it was okay or actually tell him he looked like shit and 'was not okay'. Sonny only knew for himself that if he told people he was okay even though it was obvious to see he wasn't. He only expected for them to get the hint and leave him alone or just fall for it and actually believe he was okay. Then again that was how Sonny saw it. He couldn't say much for River. Sonny was still trying to figure him out, more like trying to figure out why he had stuck around him this long. Really Sonny was a confused soul who was trying to figure out even himself. Sonny wasn't use to having feelings get the best of him.

Feelings weren't the only thing Sonny was getting use to. It was also close human contact such as hugging. It just, freaked him out. And River seem to push Sonny's buttons a lot. So much River had crawled his way into Sonny's mind. Every rounded corner River was there. He just settled with talking to him. He had no one else that he could get a conversation with, and even though River frustrated him, very. It didn't seem to bother him anymore. He could have already considered River his friend. Maybe the only one in Stanfield. Interacting with anyone else besides River just didn't appeal to him. He was somewhat even protective over River. He might not have known what such closeness made Shade feel, but if Sonny somehow ever found out. He would have made his way closer just to piss the other personality off.

Sonny didn't move, just kept staring at the long branches of the tree, and listening quietly as River spoke. With a sigh of relief from the other male. Sonny turned his head towards River. “uh huh” He nodded. He took a deep inhale looking at the dark haired male over taking in his rough features. He rolled his eyes more at himself for what he was about to do. And with a couple swift movements he brought River into his lap. “Only because you asked nicely” He spoke quietly wrapping his arms around his waist and rested his head on his shoulder. The young suicidal suddenly felt warmer. “Why do you like being held so much?” Sonny asked, half the time they were hanging out River was up on him, but Sonny always needed to be alone or distant to think. He didn't like the thought of being held, by anyone. Really though he wanted to know why he liked him holding him so much. Sonny could only remember that it wasn't until a couple days ago were close contact like this made him tense up and made him want to disappear through the cracks on the floor. What was so different now? Why did this feel so normal?

"YOUR TALKING LOOKS LIKE THIS?
"THINKING OR OTHER PEOPLE TALKING LOOKS LIKE THIS?"

I BELIEVE I TOLD SOME LIES /RIVER. IM HOLDING ONTO ALL I HAD /529.
I BELIEVE IN BUTTERFLIES /DONE. GO TO HELL SOME OTHER DAY /OUTFIT.
SAYING SORRY FOR WHEN I WAS BAD /I HOPE YOU DON'T MIND IF THEY KNOW EACH OTHER, I REALLY HATE MEETING THREADS XDD. TRUST ME ITLL BE OK REAL SLIM SHADY !?

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