oh the boringness of this place( ana )

[TONY JAMES REDWOOD]

tony sat on the couch staring at the walls of the common room. He was so bored, maybe because he was still getting used to having nothing to do. He need to cause trouble, or something. But then again, only being here now for two years, Tony had a record that went on for ever. When a fight went down, or someone was caught in the bathroom making love to some chick, they had a guess of it was; Anthony James Redwood. He was the trouble, the god, the cocky son of a bee, the sweet guy under the hard outcore that made up Tony's attitude.

He sighed. It was one of those days he sort of wanted kittycait around or ana. maybe both at the same time. Those were his two best girl friends here. He watched them, protected them like they were his own sister, just like Rose. Ah, Rose. His baby twin sister by three seconds. The one he'd still kill anyone for. He felt a vibrate in his pocket. He slide his phone out and looked at it. Speaking of the devil herself; text message from Rose. He flipped the phone opened and read it.

" Hey tonybear. Today is that day. the anniversary of daddys death. It just reminds me of how much I wish you were with me. Sam's here, so is Mason. Just like every year before you left, she is here. I miss you my big brother by three seconds. Remember I love you. I'm here when you need me. "

Tony wanted to explode now. It was the anniversary of his dad's death. He hated this day. And lately he's been doing good with everything. He stood up and wanted to screamed at something, or someone. He wanted to punch things. This was the hardest thing he went through, besides losing Sam. He had three times in his life where he wanted to forget; losing his hero, his father, losing his best friend and his rock, sam. And the day he killed his best friend since he was little, Cameron. He wanted to forget them all. He sighed. He flinched his arm, and than punched the wall so hard. He sighed and thought nothing of it. Ten minutest later, he felt the shocking pain of hurt from his knuckles. He looked at them. Great, gushing blood. He sighed. Where was everyone?

[ANASTASIA NICOLE SMITH]

Ana had grown bored sitting in her room. She had gotten back from a therapy session about an hour ago and had lost herself drawing in her sketchpad. she wasn't drawing anything particular,just the strange little bird she had seen sitting on her windowsill when she woke up this morning. She was surprised she still remembered the details of the bird, so many hours later.Ana was surprised about a lot of the things she was capable of as of late. It had been awhile since she had had an episode, and she was quite proud of herself.Now if she could only be more social. The mere word made her chew her lip a bit nervously. That was a hard part for her,but she was going to get through it and being more outgoing. That was what was going to get her out of here, here being more normal.

Ana swung her legs down from the indian style position she was sitting in on her bed and slid her feet into a pair of flats.She needed to get out.The room's quietness was starting to get to her.She grabbed the baggy grey cardigan she had taken from her brother before she was brought here,picked up her sketchbook and pencils, and started out the door.She closed the door behind herself, then quietly cussed. She had forgotten her phone and her ipod,but she didn't feel like going in looking for them. She'd find them when she cleaned her part of the room later. She started down the hall,unsure of where she would end up or who she'd run into. It really didn't matter to her,she'd probably find a corner wherever she goes and end up sitting there,watching everyone with a quiet fascination. As her feet shuffled against the floor,making the only sound in the hallway, Ana decided to go to the common room. Someone was bound to be there. Maybe someone interesting that she could draw.

Ana walked into the common room,pulling the way too long sleeves of the cardigan over her knuckles,before brushing her bangs out of her face.Her hair was starting to annoy her,it was losing it's redness and fading back to the boring brown she was born with.She wondered if they'd let her re dye it. As she brushed her hair out of her face,she spotted Tony. Ana smiled and made her way over to him. She adored Tony. He was one of her closest friend in this place.He looked out for her,catered to her scaredy catness. Of course she adored him. She put her sketchbbook down and moved to hug her friend,but stopped when she noticed his knuckles bleeding."Tony what happened ? Are you okay"? her voice came out quiet,but full of concern for her friend. had he gotten into a fight ? She spotted a box of tissue on one of the tables and went to grab them. She took out a few then placed them over Tony's knuckles,looking up at him for an answer to what had happened.

[TONY JAMES REDWOOD]

Tony was so fustrated and pissed off. He didnt even know what to do or how to put how he felt in words. Another year had passed since his dad was gone. He missed him more and more everyday. He just remembered how his dad teached him everything. To tieing his shows, to throwing a baseball the right way. His dad and him shared the love of baseball together. He played when he was little. He was supposed to be the star of the team, as everyone said. But the minute his dad passed away, the love of baseball had died in him along side his father. He was the reason he played anyways. Tony loved to see his dad smile when tony played. He loved the joy of making his father, his hero happy. Tony sighed.

He paced back and forth in the common room. Feelings flooded back of everything from the years his dad was alive. The years when his family was picture perfect. But we all know how this goes. He sighed and sit down on the couch. He stared at the wall again, then put his head in his hands. He couldnt sit. he stood up and that's when he heard the sweet voice of Ana. He let out a sigh, someone here. thank god. She went to action fast, asking things. Everything was spinning. He shook his head and said" it's okay, ana. I punched the wall. just things going on. I'm okay. "

She was like a baby sister to him. He looked her in the eyes and saw the concern. He sighed and said" ouch, ana." He sighed. It wasn't the day to get him angry and he hoped she didn't do that to him. He looked at her, with the little look in eyes. Than it dissappeared once he remembered it was sweet little ana, his little sister to him. She reminded him of his baby cousin, Bella. She was always so sweet, and motherly like. She always took care of the youngers, even Tony. He smiled and said" Ana, it's not a good day. "

He felt his phone go off. He knew he was going go off soon. He moved away from Ana. He read the text.
" Tonybear, I miss you. I miss dadddy. I miss mommy. Where did my family go? I have no one. Come home. I need you here." He wanted to punch something or kill himself for putting the one person through pain that was ALWAYS there for him, through everything in his life. Rose was there through it all with him. She was his best friend, his baby sister, his everything. He had one true family left that was close to him. Rose choosed to live by herself with the occasional Sam dropping by. He grunted, and groaned. He rose his arm and punched the wall again. He swore out. He never felt this down ever. He hurt everyone important in his life so far, and he was trying to make more just to hurt. He looked to Ana and said" Just go, ana. I'm going to hurt you too. I love you like I love Rose. I love you like I love my family. Just get away from me. I'm evil. I'm crazy. Thats why they classify me as part of the crazies. I'll blow you up. I'll blow this whole place up if i must. Everyone should just stay away from me. I hurt everyone my eyes set on. I'm not a god, I'm the devil." He was breaking right infront of Ana.

He kicked the ground and then punched the wall again. He looked at her and said" Ana, why? Why do I hurt people that I love?"

[ANASTASIA NICOLE SMITH]

Ana chewed her lip carefully and looked at the wall,spotting the crunched in spot he had punched.She knew Tony had an anger deep within him, but she had never seen it. He was always so sweet and patient with her,it often slipped her mind that there was a reason that he was here, just like her.""what's wrong Tony ? Can..can i help"? she wasn't sure exactly what was going through his head at the moment, but she didn't want to see him upset.She hated that.He reminded her so much of her older brother Sebastian sometimes, she had to stop herself from calling him bas' name. their personality similarities were so similar, it crazy. Ana treated Bas the same way too, always there to listen when he was having a bad day. and growing up in their house,there was a lot of bad days,thanks to her dad and bas always arguing. Ana shook her head as the bad memories tried to creep in and looked back at her friend as he said ow.

"Sorry, i'm sorry." she quickly stopped dabbing at his knuckles and watched curiously as he looked at her,then stood to his feet,seemingly lost in his thoughts as he read a text message.She opened her mouth to call to him when he groaned then punched a wall again,causing Ana to jump in her seat,wrapping her arms around herself protectively. She stood up slowly as he spoke,downing himself. Ana didn't like to hear him talk like this. He wasn't evil. He was her tony.

"I dont believe that." her voice was quiet but steady as she slowly moved closer to him. She didn't get too close,unsure if he was going to punch a wall again"You are not evil Tony.. you're a good person that has problems.. we all have problems" She took a step closer cautiously. "I love you Tony..you wont hurt me..and even if you did i'd forgive you..i know you wouldn't mean it." she had to get him to see how important he was to her. How much him being her friend helped her."Please dont push me away..i dont want to be alone..not here." She flinched as he hit the wall once more,kicking at the ground.She felt tears slowly coming to her eyes for her friend. his internal pain saddened her."Sometimes we do things we dont understand or don't mean. I know you dont mean to hurt the ones you love...and so do they." She was finally right beside him. she reached out slowly,carefully, and touched his back.

[TONY JAMES REDWOOD]

He sighed and paced back and forth, he didn't know what he was doing anymore. He grunted and screamed" No, no one can. I'm beyond help, Ana." He paced back and forth and sat back up and sat down again. He didn't know what he wanted, or what to do. He looked at her and said" Don't be sorry for me. DON'T BE. this is my fault. Not yours. people all be saying sorry for how i am, sorry for how i grew up, sorry for what i went through, sorry for what i did. But they don't know how it was, or how i felt. They don't know what was going through my mind when everything went down that day. They don't know shit about anything. EVERYONE OF YOU." He breathed in and out fiercly and coughed again.

He shook his head and said" Ana, I'm not a good person. I'm a messed up person. who the fuck kills their best friend? Just stabs them and watches them bleed to fucking death. Who tries to kill thier childs mother? Not a good person, a really fucked up one. That's what i am. A really fucked up person." He breathed in and out. He sighed and said" Who leaves their baby sister to defend for herself and clean this mess up? Who does that to thier baby siste? I do. The really messed up Tony. I can't even describe how much I feel and how much I hate myself." He breathed heavly. He knew was was next. He did. But he didnt stop himself. He had no control what so ever.

He moved away from her when he felt her. This is how sam started. He looked to her and said" Don't touch me, ana. Please. Don't. I'm not going to hurt you. I can't.' He breathed in and out. Then there it went. Tony's eyes rolled back to his head, and he callopsed right there infront of her.